Saturday, March 31, 2007

I Miss My Ferrari

The other day in Scottsdale, as I passed the Ferrari/Maserati dealership, I saw a beautiful yellow Ferrari F430 on the lot. Today as we drove around San Diego, I saw another yellow F430, this time a convertible Spider model. After driving Ladan's Golf and then a friend's Jeep Cherokee for a week now, the sightings made me ache to get back behind the wheel of my own yellow F430.

I bought this 8-cylinder, 490hp behemoth early in my Test Drive Unlimited career two weeks ago, and it's an absolute dream to drive [read: control using my PC-compatible Xbox360 gamepad]. No racing game has held my attention for more than a few minutes since 2000's Need For Speed: Porsche Unleashed. This game, however, has sucked me in like only a handful of games in my entire gaming, uh, "career", have done. Every night I find myself thinking, "maybe I'll just do one more race", and then suddenly it's 1:30 AM and I have to force myself to go to bed.

And so, having been away from my gamepad for over a week now, I'm positively fiending to strap back into my F430 and start tearing up the streets of Hawaii once again. And seeing all these real-life F430s makes the separation all the more painful.

Friday, March 30, 2007

Absence Explanation

Whenever I'm away from the blog for too long, I feel I owe my reader(s?) an explanation. Here goes:

On Thursday the 22nd I flew out to Phoenix for the weekend. My plan was to fly back to San Jose on Monday morning, but then return to Phoenix on Wednesday the 28th because Ladan's parents were flying back to Iran on Monday April 2nd - but out of LA, which meant we'd have to drive there over the weekend, return to Phoenix Monday night, then I'd fly back to San Jose Tuesday morning.

On Saturday the 24th, Ladan, her sister and parents and I drove north first to Sedona (where I managed to rip off the driver's side mirror on Ladan's Golf while backing out of a tight parking spot past a tree) and then on to the Grand Canyon, where we spent the night at the El Tovar Hotel. Sunday we toured the South Rim, then headed back south, stopping first at an interesting former mining town called Jerome, built into the hills about 80 miles north of Phoenix.

Ladan's parents had bought two laptop computers the previous weekend, and as I began my usual cleanup job on them (removing all the trial anti-virus programs and other pre-installed crap), I discovered what a memory hog Windows Vista is. After removing everything I could, on bootup Vista was still sucking up 340MB of the machines' paltry 512MB, making them sluggish at best. I decided to shift both 512MB sticks to one machine and buy a single 1GB stick for the other machine, but ran into a roadblock when no matter what I tried, I just could not get the screw holding the memory slot cover to come off one of the machines.

By Sunday night I'd decided that taking care of the computers, car repairs, and preparing for the trip to LA (which we'd planned for Thursday the 29th) required my presence in Phoenix more than my work in San Jose required me back there. So Monday morning I called my boss and let him know that I wouldn't be back until Tuesday April 3, a solid six work days out of the office. He was OK with it, but we'll see if my cube's been cleared out when I get back.

On Monday I spent almost the entire day working on the laptops - I ended up completely stripping the head of the screw and, after much hassle, finally got Best Buy to remove it for me. I popped the new RAM I'd bought from Fry's into the second machine and the performance significantly improved.

On Wednesday I got the Golf's side mirror replaced, at the cost of suffering through a few more hours at the Scottsdale Tool Shop and being squeezed for $433 - yes, just for a frickin' mirror assembly.

Thursday we piled in a friend's Jeep Cherokee and drove 4 hours west to Palm Desert, CA. That night we met my father and his wife for dinner, as they own a timeshare out there - 'twas the first meeting between my father and Ladan's parents, and went well.

This morning we drove to San Diego, where we'll be staying at a friend's place for the weekend. On Sunday we plan to drive up to LA/OC, and hopefully meet Bharath for Iranian kebabs at some point. Monday afternoon we drop Ladan's parents at LAX, drive back to Phoenix, and then I fly back to San Jose Tuesday morning.

So it's been a crazy week, as well as a jarring removal from all the things I'd been thinking about the week before - composing various blog posts that I'd been mulling over dealing with current events, politics, economics, and commentaries on recently read books and journal articles, starting to prepare more for The DC Move, all the gaming goodness I'd recently been partaking in with Rainbow Six: Vegas, Test Drive Unlimited, and (for one night, at least) STALKER - and in a way I feel that I really have two separate lives going here: one in Phoenix, with my family, and one in San Jose, doing all the things I do when I'm alone. At some point in the not-too-distant future, I'm looking forward to having these two lives merge again, if for nothing else than to relieve the nagging feeling that I'm always neglecting one or the other.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Mammoth Coughed Up The Dough

That's right - Mammoth refunded my money last week. I wrote a nasty e-mail to them a few days after it happened but didn't hear anything for two weeks. I then wrote back asking what was going on, and later that day received a very detailed and apologetic e-mail. The woman who responded acknowledged the inadequacy of the website's explanation of driving directions from the Bay area, and said that she would be meeting with the website administrator later in the week to discuss improving it (although I just checked and there's been no change yet). She offered to refund not only my lift ticket, but also the snowboard rental too, so I got back all one-hundred-ten bucks. She did, however, go out of her way to point out that she was offering the refund "because it's the right thing to do", and not because I mentioned complaining to the Better Business Bureau. Heh, whatever!

So I feel much better about the whole thing now. Actually this is not really a victory; I just got what I rightfully deserved from the beginning, as far as I'm concerned.

While most of my leftover money each week goes to buying plane tickets to Phoenix or paying off credit cards, this little bit o' scrill was burning a hole in my pocket and today I bought myself an Xbox360 controller that works on the PC. Why, you ask? Well, for three reasons:

1) I spent Sunday afternoon at the house of a friend from work, playing on his Xbox360 (GRAW2 and Crackdown, for those in the know) with a bunch of other guys. Just like the last time I was there, after the initial adjustment to the gamepad - cuz I'm really a keyboard-and-mouse kinda guy - I fell in love with the ergonomics of the controller. It's maybe a bit small for my hands, but other than that has just a ton of functionality crammed into it.

2) This purchase put me on the path to maybe, possibly, potentially living out my virgin console gaming fantasy, where I buy an Xbox360. I've wrestled with it since the console came out, and have resisted thus far. But the controller that I bought works on both the Xbox and the PC; so if I were to buy an Xbox in the future, and since I'd most likely get the Core system, which only includes one controller, then the one I bought would complete the near-obligatory pair.

3) Since, uh, obtaining Test Drive Unlimited over the weekend (it's been released as a 'digital download' but doesn't hit retail until next week), I've become almost obsessed with the game, as it's allowed me to reclaim some of my racing glory from the Need For Speed: Porsche Unleashed days. This game claims to model 1000 miles of road in Hawaii, and you compete in various races, car deliveries, timed taxi-type missions, and other assorted tasks to earn money that you can spend on houses, clothes (yes, really) and of course new rides. It's not just a racing game; it's got an RPG angle to it that I really dig. I don't anticipate spending much time with the house and clothes buying, but there are 125 different cars modeled in the game from which to choose. There are dealerships all over the island at which you can do test drives, and you can rent cars too. Anyway, I'm having a blast with it but my current Saitek gamepad just wasn't cutting it for controlling the cars ... and so, enter the slick Xbox360 controller.

It's a good month for PC gaming - next week this game comes out, as does Silent Hunter 4 and S.T.A.L.K.E.R., the latter being a shooter whose development I've been following for years (I have trailers for it dating back to August 2003) and am really looking forward to.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

In Defense of Command Economies

When my macroeconomics class began a month ago, one of the first topics we covered was Adam Smith, his book The Wealth of Nations, and the concept of the invisible hand. In describing Smith's ideas, our professor contrasted free-market economies with command economies, and, without explaining any of the reasoning behind socialist and communist theory, dismissed the subject by pointing out that the vast majority of the so-called communist states had collapsed in the early 90's. Keeping in mind that most of these students are fresh out of high school, few of them could even talk when the Berlin Wall came down; for them the entire Cold War, communism vs. capitalism, East vs. West, the USA vs. the USSR, NATO vs. the Warsaw Pact, Gorbachev, glasnost, perestroika - all of this had been learned, if at all, through history books. Whereas previous generations were generally familiar with at least the basics of communist theory, and even if opposed to the idea, may have recognized the relevance of at least learning about it, these kids had had no reason to know much about it aside from their history classes. Therefore this professor would be giving them perhaps their first academic exposure to the subject.

Our professor was very enthusiastic about his admiration of Smith's fundamental assumption that people want material wealth and are perhaps even greedy. And that in the face of limited resources and unlimited wants, the incentive to work harder, thereby earning an individual more money, and thereby allowing a person to surround themselves with more material wealth, would generate competition and promote efficiency among workers; this in turn would benefit the society at large. Thus, individuals pursuing their own self-interest would, in the end, be simultaneously pursuing society's collective self-interest.

After pointing out that most so-called communist countries collapsed 15 years ago, he posed the class a question: would we rather live in a free society where each person is allowed to pursue their own self-interest, where hard work would be rewarded with wealth, or would we prefer a society where the government controls the economy and, in accordance with Marx's famous statement of "from each according to his abilities, to each according to his needs", each person was only guaranteed his most basic needs? He gave no more explanation of the advantages and disadvantages of each system than that.

At this point I had to get involved. I pointed out that it was important to note that Marx clearly stated that communism would develop as an evolution of capitalism; that he theorized that capitalism was not a sustainable economic system because wealth tends to become concentrated, and increasingly so, in the hands of a small minority; and while taking as concrete fact the belief that greed is part of every human's innate psychology is questionable at best, and entirely misleading at worst, Marx was implying that an economic system based on full acceptance and encouragement of this trait was not, in the long run, sustainable as a system that could meet the needs of an entire world population; in stark contrast to Smith's assertion that limited resources necessitated individuals acting in their own self-interest and fostering competition, Marx's logic leads to the conclusion that the reality of limited resources instead encourages active cooperation and planning so that an equitable, sustainable allocation can be made of those resources. I stopped there, not even continuing on about the reality that the globalization of the world capitalist economy is continually accelerating the polarization of global wealth: the rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer, and not only is it getting worse as time goes on, it's getting worse faster and faster.

Without addressing much of my question, the professor instead insisted that greed is an undeniable human trait. I could not disagree more with this assertion. I believe the vast majority of human behavior patterns are learned, and greed is no different. Self-preservation - the survival instinct - is of course innate. But equating self-preservation with greed is inaccurate because the latter behavior is a manifestation of the former's motivating factors taken to the very extreme. We don't have to be greedy; we often are simply because our society rewards it.

Another student asked, "I don't know much about communism, but given what you've said about it here, it seems pretty bad. Why, then, are a handful of South American countries' governments moving toward more socialist economic systems? What benefit are they expecting?" To which the professor replied, "Well, that's a good question. I think these countries' governments have been so corrupt and inefficient, and a result poverty levels are so high, that the idea of socialism appeals to them, as it typically does to poorer sections of a society." Absolutely no mention of the history of exploitation and manipulation of these countries' governments, industries, and natural resources by Western countries, and how that has encouraged poverty and corruption. No mention of the fact that wealth is continuing to flow out of these countries, toward already-wealthy Western countries. No mention of the fact that World Bank and IMF loan terms have often included Structural Adjustment Programs (SAPs) that force them to cut back on essential social programs and open their industries to foreign investment and ownership. No mention that most of these countries are clearly not benefiting from the global capitalist economy, and that therefore it should be expected that their leaders would consider moving along a nationalist course.

By the end of the class I was thoroughly frustrated with the professor's one-sided presentation of the material, and on the way out I asked the guy who had asked the question about South American countries if he had some idea of what the actual answer was, and was trying to see if the professor could address it, or if he really was looking for an answer. He said his reason was both; on the way to the parking lot, we talked about it and the points I made were entirely new to him.

Clearly the examples the modern world has seen of communist countries have not been always encouraging. There are a variety of reasons for this - faulty implementations of Marx's ideas, the pressures of dealing with a world capitalistic economy, and relentless hostility from capitalist states, among others - but what bothers me is that lost in this reality is the value in the underlying ideas themselves. How can anyone possibly argue that the massively state-supported capitalism that has accelerated the process of globalization and thereby also accelerated the polarization of wealth, not only between regions and countries but also between classes, is sustainable and efficient? Communism doesn't have all the answers, but capitalism sure isn't coming up with much either.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

The Morning Routine

I've got a fairly consistent morning routine when I get to work: turn on my computer, check work e-mail, then start surfing the web. I spend a good 45 minutes checking out various websites, sometimes longer, before beginning any real work. Sometimes when my reading reaches a full hour, I chuckle at how funny it would be actually count the websites I check every day. Today I realized that additionally, maybe it would be funny to actually list them all here. And so I now bring you a complete, chronological list of the sites that I habitually check out every single morning:

Bank of America
Blue's News
Gamespy PC Games
Gamespot PC Games
PlanetUnreal
Ghost Recon Advanced Warfighter
SimHQ
LockOnFiles
LockOn.ru Forums
SimHQ LockOn Forum
Shockwave Battle of Britain 2 Forum
SimHQ Battle of Britain 2 Forum
SimHQ IL-2 Forum
Frugalsworld Falcon4 Forum
FreeFalcon Red Viper Forum
GlobalFalcon OpenFalcon Forum
Subsim Silent Hunter 3 Mods Forum
Subsim Silent Hunter 4 Forum
PlanetHalfLife
HardOCP
TechReport
DailyTech
San Jose Mercury News Fry's Electronics Ads
CNN
BBC World News
B's House
Embracing Mediocrity
GregP's Profundity
Sepia Mutiny
English Russia

Yup, that's my morning routine: 30 websites. You'll notice the pathetic abundance of gaming sites; it's an addiction, plain and simple. The first step is admitting the problem, right?

Over the course of the rest of the day, in addition to revisiting many of those sites, there are probably 20 others that I regularly browse.

As I'm sure many other people have similarly experienced, I've gotten so attached to keeping up with events in all of these little communities that I truly feel out of the loop and a bit off balance if I have to skip my morning routine and forgo my surfing.

Sometimes I wonder what would happen to me if I had a job that required me to actually, you know, work, within the first hour of arriving at the office. Yeah, that would suck.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Vegas, baby!

I've never been a "Vegas guy", in that I don't drink that much, don't smoke, don't know how to play any card games (and don't have enough interest to learn any), and don't find much appeal in gambling. Various groups of my friends have done "the Vegas trip" with their friends over the years, but I've never joined. My first visit there was about two years ago when Ladan's mother was here visiting us, and she really wanted to see the city. None of us were gamblers, but we had fun nonetheless, as Las Vegas is most definitely, if nothing else, a sight to behold.

This trip included Ladan, her sister, both her parents and myself for three nights; I flew out to Phoenix Wednesday night (after only being back in CA for three days), then Thursday we drove to Las Vegas. Yesterday evening we returned (and this morning I'm in the airport, about to head back to San Jose). The drive from Phoenix to Las Vegas is pretty boring except for passing over the Hoover Dam, which is an engineering marvel of obvious historical significance. They're building another highway through the area and the giant bridge that they've started building across the wide river, where each side is lined with almost sheer cliffsides, is incredible.

I didn't actually do any gambling until Saturday night, and it was limited to 25-cent slot machines at that. Only willing to part with twenty bucks, I got as high as $33 before losing it all. Slot machines are interesting to me; there's absolutely no strategy or logic that has any bearing whatsoever on the outcome of each spin. And the longer I sat there, drinking beer, watching the people around me, many of whom resembled zombies with their robotic repeated movements and blank stares, it struck me how convoluted the appeal of the slot machine is; isn't it true that the mathematics that determine exactly what you end up with cannot possibly be that difficult to decipher (and note that I'm only talking here about the mechanical slot machines, not the computer-based ones; how much easier could it get to make money than to use a completely-determined computer program to represent seemingly random results to the player? It's just such a farce!)? And therefore, could not the machine be easily set up to allow wins only a minority of the time?

Taking that idea further, why do some people become so obsessed with a game that all logic would dictate will cause them to lose the majority of the time? Clearly, casinos wouldn't exist if they couldn't make money. Based on the elaborate designs of most casino resorts on the strip, they're obviously raking in giant fistfuls of money, all the time. To make money, the casino must win more than the player; thus it's logical to assume that casinos only offer games that can be fixed (or at least can be statistically proven) to ensure this outcome. The reels have a finite number of known-ordered pictures, and so any given spin time, with a known start location, will yield a known end location on the reel. All that needs to be determined, therefore, is how often you must let the player win in order to keep their interest and prolong their playing, and thus, the amount of money that they lose. As a cognitive psychology problem, frankly it seems fascinating to me. It almost made me want to research the topic and see what's been written about it. How much effort would the average casino patron need to exert to discover all of the science behind the gambling industry? It just cannot possibly be that complicated.

Saturday night we also attended a performance of Jubilee, which was an entertainingly gaudy typical Vegas show with lots and lots of toplessness (somewhat to our surprise) thrown in for good Vegas measure. I felt like I was watching a movie about Vegas; there were rows and rows of high-heeled dancing topless showgirls, with elaborate feather plumes flailing about, on the stage during the entire show. Not that I'm complaining, of course.

Anyway, critical psychological analyses aside, the trip was fun. With all the lights, sounds, crowds, incredibly huge resorts with indoor winding themed malls, as well as the wide variety of people, that you see in Vegas, it's well worth visiting at least once in a lifetime just for the sheer spectacle of it all.